The night Sam knocked on the bathroom door we had a big misunderstandig. I even wanted to forbid him to see his own son, just because he wanted to come in and talk to me.
I am so ashamed. You see: I thaught that he wanted to come in because he wanted to have a nice look at me. He just said that he has better persons to look at than me and so I concluded that he had a new girlfried to look at. It was so terrible. Sometimes I really have to turn on my brain. But at the other hand he could argue a bit better. In the end he just came to me to tell me that he was scared to be one of the four out of five fathers who loose contact to their chidren after 15 years, isn`t that ironic??Ironic but cute,because he wanted to tell me of his fright. Ironic and horrible because I was really in condition to do that.
Sam red that father stuff in the internet. It was a report by the Prime Minister. Sam wanted to know how this loosing contact things happen. Mum answered that things get hard. At least I`m asking myself if things get hard in our relation too.
Donnerstag, 17. Dezember 2009
chapter 17
I think it`s good that Sam spends some time with his dad, but I think that he lost his mind on the way home. Sam`s father must be an idiot or something like that. Maybe he is from mars!?
How could he leave Roof`s basket on the back seat? Is he crazy? I mean he`s an adult. But I think he got an adult without ever had heard something about responsibility. He could have an accident, and than Roof would just fly out of the car. It doesn`t matter if he had driven slow or not. An accident is something you can`t control. If you have one than you have one. You can be as careful as possible, but when someone breaks into your car than a little baby on the back seat could be dead. Roof could be dead. My little three weeks old son could be dead. Why does that not get into his mind???
A bit later Sam got sick. Poor boy, but Sam sneezed his germs always on "little" Roof.
Not so good. I was worried that Roof could get sick. He is so small and his immune sistem isn`t so strong jet, but mum said that it would be good for him, but I wanted to be on the safe side and offered Sam to sleep in my brother`s room.
But at least he went home. I know that it`s only for a short time, till he gets healthy, but I miss him. It feels like our small family isn`t complete. Every night there lefts something on the other bedside. I can`t explain, but I want him to come back as soon as possible.
How could he leave Roof`s basket on the back seat? Is he crazy? I mean he`s an adult. But I think he got an adult without ever had heard something about responsibility. He could have an accident, and than Roof would just fly out of the car. It doesn`t matter if he had driven slow or not. An accident is something you can`t control. If you have one than you have one. You can be as careful as possible, but when someone breaks into your car than a little baby on the back seat could be dead. Roof could be dead. My little three weeks old son could be dead. Why does that not get into his mind???
A bit later Sam got sick. Poor boy, but Sam sneezed his germs always on "little" Roof.
Not so good. I was worried that Roof could get sick. He is so small and his immune sistem isn`t so strong jet, but mum said that it would be good for him, but I wanted to be on the safe side and offered Sam to sleep in my brother`s room.
But at least he went home. I know that it`s only for a short time, till he gets healthy, but I miss him. It feels like our small family isn`t complete. Every night there lefts something on the other bedside. I can`t explain, but I want him to come back as soon as possible.
Mittwoch, 16. Dezember 2009
Chapter 16
Having a baby is hard.
Yes, I knew that it`s hard but not as that.
Now sleep, now freetime. I am happy when Roof sleeps, he is so cute when he lyes there in his little bed and snores. But that`s not the reason. I`m happy because I have 5 minutes for myself. Ok ,5 minutes it`s a extreamly short time, but it`s my time.
When you have a baby you see how wonderful your freetime is. You have to enjoy it.
As I said before Sam is a real help for me. Once it`s his turn and than it`s my turn. That`s the positive about a PARTNERship: You can switch responsibility.
And in a partnership there is also a secound thing: Love. And exactly that connects me and Sam. Last night, after Sam had to change Roofs nappy, we told each other that we love us.
Sam said it so serious, I love him.
But after Sam came back from college, I think he went there about the third time in three weeks(lucky boy) ,he was extremly snoby. He told me he had a fight with the real father of Roof, Jason Gerson, my exboyfriend. He ment that everything fits together. At first I didn`t knew what he was talking about. I mean I love him and now he thinks that I am unfaithful.
He said that my ex made me pregnant and dumped me, so I had to look for another boy. And so I found him. But of course I wanted to feel him without a condom and now I just made him belive that it is his child,isn`t that weird??
But all that was enough for me .I started to cry. I gave up my future for him and HIS son and now he wanted to make me feel, that I messed up his live and ruined his future. I love him, but after that I asked myself if he does. Roof is his son and after I stopped a bit to cry I had to proove it. I mean we met at the birthdayparty of my mum that was nearly a year ago and I had a 11 months long pregnancy till 3 weeks, so it has to be his son. But in that moment, I thaught, he was quite happy that there was a chance of not beeing the father of Roof. Even till today I don`t know if he`s glad to be the father.
But as in the beginning love is what connects us and so Sam calmed down and said sorry. In the end of our fight we even kissed, because I think he understood what I ment and I wasn`t angry anymore. It was really nice of him. And what us connects isn`t only love, but also a future, which is a bit messed up.
Yes, I knew that it`s hard but not as that.
Now sleep, now freetime. I am happy when Roof sleeps, he is so cute when he lyes there in his little bed and snores. But that`s not the reason. I`m happy because I have 5 minutes for myself. Ok ,5 minutes it`s a extreamly short time, but it`s my time.
When you have a baby you see how wonderful your freetime is. You have to enjoy it.
As I said before Sam is a real help for me. Once it`s his turn and than it`s my turn. That`s the positive about a PARTNERship: You can switch responsibility.
And in a partnership there is also a secound thing: Love. And exactly that connects me and Sam. Last night, after Sam had to change Roofs nappy, we told each other that we love us.
Sam said it so serious, I love him.
But after Sam came back from college, I think he went there about the third time in three weeks(lucky boy) ,he was extremly snoby. He told me he had a fight with the real father of Roof, Jason Gerson, my exboyfriend. He ment that everything fits together. At first I didn`t knew what he was talking about. I mean I love him and now he thinks that I am unfaithful.
He said that my ex made me pregnant and dumped me, so I had to look for another boy. And so I found him. But of course I wanted to feel him without a condom and now I just made him belive that it is his child,isn`t that weird??
But all that was enough for me .I started to cry. I gave up my future for him and HIS son and now he wanted to make me feel, that I messed up his live and ruined his future. I love him, but after that I asked myself if he does. Roof is his son and after I stopped a bit to cry I had to proove it. I mean we met at the birthdayparty of my mum that was nearly a year ago and I had a 11 months long pregnancy till 3 weeks, so it has to be his son. But in that moment, I thaught, he was quite happy that there was a chance of not beeing the father of Roof. Even till today I don`t know if he`s glad to be the father.
But as in the beginning love is what connects us and so Sam calmed down and said sorry. In the end of our fight we even kissed, because I think he understood what I ment and I wasn`t angry anymore. It was really nice of him. And what us connects isn`t only love, but also a future, which is a bit messed up.
chapter 15
Now Sam moved into my room. I`m glad that I`m not alone with the baby.
I think Sam will be a big help for me. I donno if another boy would be so nice like Sam.
Well, at the moment I`m spending my time with feeding roof. It`s relaxing.
Especially when I came back from hospital. I remember that Sam`s mum, my mum, Sam and even Mark whatched me feeding my little cute son. But after some time I just wanted to be alone with my little family. My mum missunderstood it because I said that I wanted to get all those out, who don`t live here. I belive that my mum is still thinking that I`m part of her family. Ok, I mean I`m her daughter. But now I have my own family. My own cute little family and I really have to say that I love this kind of family. But I can understand her. It is difficult at least because she got grandma very fast.
I think Sam will be a big help for me. I donno if another boy would be so nice like Sam.
Well, at the moment I`m spending my time with feeding roof. It`s relaxing.
Especially when I came back from hospital. I remember that Sam`s mum, my mum, Sam and even Mark whatched me feeding my little cute son. But after some time I just wanted to be alone with my little family. My mum missunderstood it because I said that I wanted to get all those out, who don`t live here. I belive that my mum is still thinking that I`m part of her family. Ok, I mean I`m her daughter. But now I have my own family. My own cute little family and I really have to say that I love this kind of family. But I can understand her. It is difficult at least because she got grandma very fast.
Donnerstag, 26. November 2009
Chapter 14 Roof is born
I`m so glad that everything went good.
Now Roof is born and the pregnancy is over. I am so happy. No more flushing my crazy meals down the loo.Finally.
I am also happy that Sam went to my house or the toilet, you know.
Saying the truth I thaught he won`t come. I thaught he is afraight or frightend to see me nacked and having contractions , but I am proud of him that he came. I donno if I would manage that in his situation. I couldn`t escape the baby was just inside of me.
The contractions were really hard for me. It was like the whole pain I ever had flushed over me.
But as I can see it it was hard for Sam to count the the time. What an idiot, but I can understand him .He was just a confused idiot. It isn`t easy to see an nacked, sqeezing woman shouting like an animal. As my mum took us too the hospital the contractions went on. In the hospital I sleept a bit. I stood up and just started calling names to everybody in that damin room. The pain was just to extreme: every secound a contraction and so on...
I got really shocked when the baby got stuck. But after the painfull stuck everything went good. It was a good feeling to be a mother and I was proud of myself that I managed it.
As I looked at my little cute son I was amaized. He was the sweetest boy I `ve ever seen. I just wanted to hold him in my arms for ever. It was a beautiful feeling to be a mother. But as I wanted to say his name I noticed that he hadn`t had one. So I searched for one. Suddenly I realized that kind of slow piano music in the backround. It was from the CD my mother made for us. It had to be relaxing and it worked.
I asked my mum for the name of the singer: He was called Rufus. A brilliant name.
I thought that it`s perfect for my son. Sam is calling him Roof, I donno where he got this from but it`s sweet, isn`t it.Well the secound name will be an argument.
Now Roof is born and the pregnancy is over. I am so happy. No more flushing my crazy meals down the loo.Finally.
I am also happy that Sam went to my house or the toilet, you know.
Saying the truth I thaught he won`t come. I thaught he is afraight or frightend to see me nacked and having contractions , but I am proud of him that he came. I donno if I would manage that in his situation. I couldn`t escape the baby was just inside of me.
The contractions were really hard for me. It was like the whole pain I ever had flushed over me.
But as I can see it it was hard for Sam to count the the time. What an idiot, but I can understand him .He was just a confused idiot. It isn`t easy to see an nacked, sqeezing woman shouting like an animal. As my mum took us too the hospital the contractions went on. In the hospital I sleept a bit. I stood up and just started calling names to everybody in that damin room. The pain was just to extreme: every secound a contraction and so on...
I got really shocked when the baby got stuck. But after the painfull stuck everything went good. It was a good feeling to be a mother and I was proud of myself that I managed it.
As I looked at my little cute son I was amaized. He was the sweetest boy I `ve ever seen. I just wanted to hold him in my arms for ever. It was a beautiful feeling to be a mother. But as I wanted to say his name I noticed that he hadn`t had one. So I searched for one. Suddenly I realized that kind of slow piano music in the backround. It was from the CD my mother made for us. It had to be relaxing and it worked.
I asked my mum for the name of the singer: He was called Rufus. A brilliant name.
I thought that it`s perfect for my son. Sam is calling him Roof, I donno where he got this from but it`s sweet, isn`t it.Well the secound name will be an argument.
Chapter 13
We got our exams back Sam`s ones were good.
My exams were not really the best, but that doesn`t matter now.
Sam and I, we decided that I will leave school after the baby is born. The baby, yes it sounds stupid but we haven`t got a name jet, so we have to hurry up....What I wanted to say is that I will concentrate on my job as a mother and I want to do that as good as possible.
We as the parents of the young child want to do the best for it and in my opinion the best is a mother that takes care of her baby 24 hours a day.
Last night I thaught about my mum and Sam`s.
I mean my mum is 50 years old and Sam`s is about 35 and she is pregnant too.Isn`t that weird???
I really want to know if they will be friends .I mean my child is only 4 months older.
My exams were not really the best, but that doesn`t matter now.
Sam and I, we decided that I will leave school after the baby is born. The baby, yes it sounds stupid but we haven`t got a name jet, so we have to hurry up....What I wanted to say is that I will concentrate on my job as a mother and I want to do that as good as possible.
We as the parents of the young child want to do the best for it and in my opinion the best is a mother that takes care of her baby 24 hours a day.
Last night I thaught about my mum and Sam`s.
I mean my mum is 50 years old and Sam`s is about 35 and she is pregnant too.Isn`t that weird???
I really want to know if they will be friends .I mean my child is only 4 months older.
Sonntag, 8. November 2009
chater 11 my feelings
Everything changing in good??
It´s going to be more familiarly.
Sam and Alicia`s parents are on firstname terms.
But as I see it it`s weirnd of Andrea for asking them where Sam will live when the baby is there, when she makes him feel like he`s not welcome. I mean this theory is the most realistic of all.
To tell the pregnancy secret Sam`s mum is unfair because Sam hasn`t the chance explain it himself. She is a bit freaky, I think so.
But hadn`t thaught that sams mum advise her son to stay at home and do not help Alicia by night and the whole time,because she was like Alicia too. A young mother wanting as much help as possible.
But Ican understand her because she wants to save her son and do the best out of the situation.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I`m happy that Sam`s mum accepts the situation, but I think it was easier for her than for my parents. I mean she has bin in this situation already when she got pregnant with Sam.
I`m happy that she didn`t do an abortion. I think Sam is the best that ever happened to her and I hope my child will be so like her son Sam.
I love him so much and I know that we`ll spend a great time together in my room, when the baby has been born.
It´s going to be more familiarly.
Sam and Alicia`s parents are on firstname terms.
But as I see it it`s weirnd of Andrea for asking them where Sam will live when the baby is there, when she makes him feel like he`s not welcome. I mean this theory is the most realistic of all.
To tell the pregnancy secret Sam`s mum is unfair because Sam hasn`t the chance explain it himself. She is a bit freaky, I think so.
But hadn`t thaught that sams mum advise her son to stay at home and do not help Alicia by night and the whole time,because she was like Alicia too. A young mother wanting as much help as possible.
But Ican understand her because she wants to save her son and do the best out of the situation.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I`m happy that Sam`s mum accepts the situation, but I think it was easier for her than for my parents. I mean she has bin in this situation already when she got pregnant with Sam.
I`m happy that she didn`t do an abortion. I think Sam is the best that ever happened to her and I hope my child will be so like her son Sam.
I love him so much and I know that we`ll spend a great time together in my room, when the baby has been born.
Chapter 10-Alicias list at pregnancy classes
Having a baby means:
-taking a big responsibility
-no sleep
-swollen eyes
-changing smelly nappies
-feed the baby
-charing wor with partner
-taking a big responsibility
-no sleep
-swollen eyes
-changing smelly nappies
-feed the baby
-charing wor with partner
chapter 10 my feelings
In chapter 10 everything is going a bit fast.
I donno if I would feel like them. I mean they go to hospital do this x-ray thing and suddenly they kiss. Ok Sam does this only for the baby, but when I would be Sam or Alicia I would want to have a bit more time: Sam just came back from Hastings but that doesn`t matter for Alicia.
In the pregnancy classes I would reakt totally different. Everybody would stare at me, because I would be too young , but Alicia feels good there. I would do it like Sam wanted to. He doesn`t really knows what it means to be a dad. Iwould feel there like in a wrong film. Like a child maybe in a horror film. Just at the false place and not welcome.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I am so happy that Sam is OK.
I just thaught that something happened to him because his mobile was off.
As we were in the hospital I had the feeling that my whole family was around me: my partner and my child, my little, new family.
It was the first time, that I felt something like that, and it was nice.
I donno if Sam feels like that too, but at least we kissed and isn`t that the proof??
At the GCSC classes I felt a bit like everyone was staring at me. But after a while I ignored it and
wanted to join the preparation. The preparation for the beginning of my new live with Sam.
I donno if I would feel like them. I mean they go to hospital do this x-ray thing and suddenly they kiss. Ok Sam does this only for the baby, but when I would be Sam or Alicia I would want to have a bit more time: Sam just came back from Hastings but that doesn`t matter for Alicia.
In the pregnancy classes I would reakt totally different. Everybody would stare at me, because I would be too young , but Alicia feels good there. I would do it like Sam wanted to. He doesn`t really knows what it means to be a dad. Iwould feel there like in a wrong film. Like a child maybe in a horror film. Just at the false place and not welcome.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I am so happy that Sam is OK.
I just thaught that something happened to him because his mobile was off.
As we were in the hospital I had the feeling that my whole family was around me: my partner and my child, my little, new family.
It was the first time, that I felt something like that, and it was nice.
I donno if Sam feels like that too, but at least we kissed and isn`t that the proof??
At the GCSC classes I felt a bit like everyone was staring at me. But after a while I ignored it and
wanted to join the preparation. The preparation for the beginning of my new live with Sam.
chapter 9-Alicia Is she against an aboration???
In the moment I knew I was pregnant I saw 2 options:
-1. I should keep the baby and ruin a part of my life.
-2.Or I should do an aboration .
Bouth has got positive and negative sides. With and aboration I kill a baby. But what is more important? Me having a good life and a save chilhood or saving the life of another person, my one baby.
I donno what to do. So I messed around in the internet: doing an aboration is the same as having a gun in your pocket and killing the next person going over the street. I wound`t do that.
So I want too keep the baby.To tell your parents about your pregnancy is not as bad as klilling your own child. I´m sure about that and nobody can change my mind.
-1. I should keep the baby and ruin a part of my life.
-2.Or I should do an aboration .
Bouth has got positive and negative sides. With and aboration I kill a baby. But what is more important? Me having a good life and a save chilhood or saving the life of another person, my one baby.
I donno what to do. So I messed around in the internet: doing an aboration is the same as having a gun in your pocket and killing the next person going over the street. I wound`t do that.
So I want too keep the baby.To tell your parents about your pregnancy is not as bad as klilling your own child. I´m sure about that and nobody can change my mind.
Dienstag, 20. Oktober 2009
my oppinion about chapter 6-8
I think that chapter 6 till 8 is verry confusing not at least because of Sam whizzing into the future. It was very clever to answer the peoples questions as objective as possible, so that nobody could find out in what situation Sam really was. When you ask me, in the next chapter it was surprising, that he ran away from home and stayed at a B&B. I mean it was his first day after his future trip and suddenly he ran away. There, in the future he wanted to be in his own old room and now he leaves it just because he wants to escape from his future. In my oppinon it`s a future like a tsunamy:It`s something coming over you, you can`t escape from.
So the night he woke up for his job (helping an old freaky man putting something up from under his bed....) he suddenly realized that he wanted to be back home. He thaught that taking care on a baby and being his father is quite easyer than doing such pensioners stuff and getting weird payed for this 24h job. But when you imagine his situation it isn`t like that. When you ask me, it`s the opposite...I couldn`t really understand his stuation...I mean exactly because of that stuff he ran away and suddenly he changes his mind just because of getting up at night. In my opinion it was clear that he wouldn`t have much money or even no money, but he didn`t realized it till yet. Stupid when you ask me.
At home his mother was A BIT angry, not realistik if you ask me. Not realistik and naive. You donno why? So listen: He came home, his mother shouted at him, made a big breakfast for her son and hugged him like nothing had happened before. After that he told her a fantasy story, and imagination reasons why he ran away just because of hiding the possibility that Alicia was pregnant. And at least Sam`s mum thought it was all her fault because of devocing with her ex husband. Very naive if you ask me.
But at the end of the chapter and after each trip he could go to Alicia`s and ask her wether she was pregnant or not and say it to his mum because at least she and every body else will know it. You can`t just run away from your future. And maby if he had stayed in Starbucks and made the test together with Alicia he hadn`t been whizzed into the future or even ran away from home.
So the night he woke up for his job (helping an old freaky man putting something up from under his bed....) he suddenly realized that he wanted to be back home. He thaught that taking care on a baby and being his father is quite easyer than doing such pensioners stuff and getting weird payed for this 24h job. But when you imagine his situation it isn`t like that. When you ask me, it`s the opposite...I couldn`t really understand his stuation...I mean exactly because of that stuff he ran away and suddenly he changes his mind just because of getting up at night. In my opinion it was clear that he wouldn`t have much money or even no money, but he didn`t realized it till yet. Stupid when you ask me.
At home his mother was A BIT angry, not realistik if you ask me. Not realistik and naive. You donno why? So listen: He came home, his mother shouted at him, made a big breakfast for her son and hugged him like nothing had happened before. After that he told her a fantasy story, and imagination reasons why he ran away just because of hiding the possibility that Alicia was pregnant. And at least Sam`s mum thought it was all her fault because of devocing with her ex husband. Very naive if you ask me.
But at the end of the chapter and after each trip he could go to Alicia`s and ask her wether she was pregnant or not and say it to his mum because at least she and every body else will know it. You can`t just run away from your future. And maby if he had stayed in Starbucks and made the test together with Alicia he hadn`t been whizzed into the future or even ran away from home.
Sonntag, 27. September 2009
Chapter 5- future
After Sam went home Alica will run into Starbucks ,but she will not find Sam.She will get into panik and starts crying because he was the only one she could talk to,the only one who was involved into her problem.But she will pull herself together and buy the test.After a couple of nights she will call Sam.So her exboyfriend will meet her .Alicia will go into the bathroom and do the test.She`ll run out of the bathroom crying.Alicia is previous.The young parents will be confused , angry and happy at the same time.Alicia will say:"Why didn`t you put something on, everything is your fault!!!" .But Sam will answer:"Oh no,that`s not my fault it`s yours .You wanted to have sex,so it`s your problem ,your baby ,your ruined future ,not my`s!!!!!".And he will go out feeling stupid. Alicia will tell her problem to anyone,till she beginns to have a belly.Then her parent`s will find out everything .Their family atmosphere will be ruined and they will hate Alicias exboyfriend .Whereas Sams will try to forget everything. But it wount work. So he will try to apologise his fault, shouting on Alicia.But that will be difficult because of the time that passed between their last meet and Alicia`s parents.
chapter 3-4 As alicia about Sam.
Sam is a verry nice and lovely boy. He isn`t like the other guys at school or so. I mean he shows his true feelings but sometimes he is a bit shy.
My parents think he`s stupid but he isn`t. It`s the opposite, he is really clever. If I could I would spend every secound with him, but I`m not sure if he thinks so too.
Having a sexuall relation with Sam is a bit diificult. I mean as I wanted to sleep with him the fist time he don`t wanted to. Maybe Sam thought I wanted to make my exboyfriend envious by sleeping with him, but that was not my intention.
I really love Sam and he said he loves me too. But finally we slept with eachother. It was beautiful, so isn`t that true love?
My parents think he`s stupid but he isn`t. It`s the opposite, he is really clever. If I could I would spend every secound with him, but I`m not sure if he thinks so too.
Having a sexuall relation with Sam is a bit diificult. I mean as I wanted to sleep with him the fist time he don`t wanted to. Maybe Sam thought I wanted to make my exboyfriend envious by sleeping with him, but that was not my intention.
I really love Sam and he said he loves me too. But finally we slept with eachother. It was beautiful, so isn`t that true love?
chapter 5-summary
The students at school think that Sam is cool because they saw him with this pretty girl Alicia. After he ended up with her much mor girls want to go out with him, like Nikki, a young girl wanting babys. That`s the reason why Sam don`t wants to have sex with her or even a relation. The day after the date, Sams sixteenth birthday, starts with donuts and presents. Even his grandma and dad are coming to celebrate his special day. But suddenly he gets a message from Alicia. She wants to meet him at Statrbuks. But Sam already knows what she wants to say.
Alicia tells him finally at the coffe shop that she is late with her period and that she wants to buy a test of previousity with him. But they haven`t got enough money for it, so Alicia went home to bring some. Sam has to wait for her but after 25 minutes he goes home. He is scared. He goes home and turns his mobile off, because he wants to have just one day of his old life back.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
Oh god.
I`m late. Late and pregnant, am I???
I hope not. I`m so nervous. I donno what to do .I can`t think anymore.
What about Sam`s and my future, what about our dreams??
I`m nearly going crazy. But there still exists a chance for us.
I hope Sam will not run away or leave me alone. I could understand him, but it wont be fair.
But now he is there and waits for me at Starbucks till I come back with some money.
We`ll buy the test and everything will be good.
Everything will be good Alicia. Come down. Don`t worry. Everything will be OK.
Alicia tells him finally at the coffe shop that she is late with her period and that she wants to buy a test of previousity with him. But they haven`t got enough money for it, so Alicia went home to bring some. Sam has to wait for her but after 25 minutes he goes home. He is scared. He goes home and turns his mobile off, because he wants to have just one day of his old life back.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
Oh god.
I`m late. Late and pregnant, am I???
I hope not. I`m so nervous. I donno what to do .I can`t think anymore.
What about Sam`s and my future, what about our dreams??
I`m nearly going crazy. But there still exists a chance for us.
I hope Sam will not run away or leave me alone. I could understand him, but it wont be fair.
But now he is there and waits for me at Starbucks till I come back with some money.
We`ll buy the test and everything will be good.
Everything will be good Alicia. Come down. Don`t worry. Everything will be OK.
chapter 4-summary
In chapter 4 Sam hasn`t got the same feelings for Alicia as in the beginning of their relation.
He is bored of her and he thinks that things started to go wrong between them. So Sam starts to dissociate himself from Alicia. He goes scating again and is busy with his own live.
Once Alicia invites him for lunch with her family. After that he spends some time with Alicia in her room. Later he goes scating and suddenly he realizes that he is the only one bored in this relation. At home there is his mum with this blocke from pizza Express,they work for the same company. Sam tells his mother at least that he thinks Alicia and him are braking up. So sam is dissociating more and more while he talks about his problems with TH.
FEELINGS ALICIA
I donno what is wrong with Sam he is different.
I can`t discribe but there is a distance between us. Iwant to spend more time with him and join every minute of my teenage-life with my new boyfriend. I love him so much.
He is the most sensible and honest boy I ever met. He is thousand times better than my ex.
I love him so much and I`m glad to be with him.
He is bored of her and he thinks that things started to go wrong between them. So Sam starts to dissociate himself from Alicia. He goes scating again and is busy with his own live.
Once Alicia invites him for lunch with her family. After that he spends some time with Alicia in her room. Later he goes scating and suddenly he realizes that he is the only one bored in this relation. At home there is his mum with this blocke from pizza Express,they work for the same company. Sam tells his mother at least that he thinks Alicia and him are braking up. So sam is dissociating more and more while he talks about his problems with TH.
FEELINGS ALICIA
I donno what is wrong with Sam he is different.
I can`t discribe but there is a distance between us. Iwant to spend more time with him and join every minute of my teenage-life with my new boyfriend. I love him so much.
He is the most sensible and honest boy I ever met. He is thousand times better than my ex.
I love him so much and I`m glad to be with him.
Samstag, 26. September 2009
chapter 3-summary
In chapter 3 Sam`s mum is worried about her son. He only realizes the time he spends with Alicia. Everything else is waiting for the next time he meets her. So his mum wants to spend some time with him. She wants to go to Pizza Express. For Sam it is a terrible feeling to be so long without Alicia. After the cinema Sam`s mum meets some blokes in the restaurant during she is waiting for the take-away pizzas. On the way home Sam`s mum talks to her son about Alicia and sex. Sam thinks that she is worried about becomming parents in the age of 16 because the baby (Sam) ruined a part of her live.
But she doesn`t worried about that but about things chainging, Sam beeing an important part of someone elses live, that Sam would leave her at least. So Sam`s mum wants to meet Alicia one night for diner. She thinks that she wouldn`t be so scared of her after that. In the next night Alicia and Sam feel like nobody could understand them. They start messing about but without putting anything on. Sam realizes his fault whereas Alicia only wants to fell her boyfried propably. A couple nights later Alicia comes for diner. Finally the atmosphere is good. At least the two girls spoke about having baybies, a boring subject for Sam.
FEELINGS ALICIA
I want to be together with Sam.
I`m so in love with him, and I´m so happy that he came to my mum`s birthday party.
If he didn`t came I wouldn`t have such a great time with him. I think he is the best that ever happened to me and I think that now I`m spending the best time of my life.
His mum is a very nice woman. To have the diner was a good idea, we had a lot of fun.
But she doesn`t worried about that but about things chainging, Sam beeing an important part of someone elses live, that Sam would leave her at least. So Sam`s mum wants to meet Alicia one night for diner. She thinks that she wouldn`t be so scared of her after that. In the next night Alicia and Sam feel like nobody could understand them. They start messing about but without putting anything on. Sam realizes his fault whereas Alicia only wants to fell her boyfried propably. A couple nights later Alicia comes for diner. Finally the atmosphere is good. At least the two girls spoke about having baybies, a boring subject for Sam.
FEELINGS ALICIA
I want to be together with Sam.
I`m so in love with him, and I´m so happy that he came to my mum`s birthday party.
If he didn`t came I wouldn`t have such a great time with him. I think he is the best that ever happened to me and I think that now I`m spending the best time of my life.
His mum is a very nice woman. To have the diner was a good idea, we had a lot of fun.
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