chapter 18

The night Sam knocked on the bathroom door we had a big misunderstandig. I even wanted to forbid him to see his own son, just because he wanted to come in and talk to me.
I am so ashamed. You see: I thaught that he wanted to come in because he wanted to have a nice look at me. He just said that he has better persons to look at than me and so I concluded that he had a new girlfried to look at. It was so terrible. Sometimes I really have to turn on my brain. But at the other hand he could argue a bit better. In the end he just came to me to tell me that he was scared to be one of the four out of five fathers who loose contact to their chidren after 15 years, isn`t that ironic??Ironic but cute,because he wanted to tell me of his fright. Ironic and horrible because I was really in condition to do that.
Sam red that father stuff in the internet. It was a report by the Prime Minister. Sam wanted to know how this loosing contact things happen. Mum answered that things get hard. At least I`m asking myself if things get hard in our relation too.