chapter 10 my feelings

In chapter 10 everything is going a bit fast.
I donno if I would feel like them. I mean they go to hospital do this x-ray thing and suddenly they kiss. Ok Sam does this only for the baby, but when I would be Sam or Alicia I would want to have a bit more time: Sam just came back from Hastings but that doesn`t matter for Alicia.
In the pregnancy classes I would reakt totally different. Everybody would stare at me, because I would be too young , but Alicia feels good there. I would do it like Sam wanted to. He doesn`t really knows what it means to be a dad. Iwould feel there like in a wrong film. Like a child maybe in a horror film. Just at the false place and not welcome.

ALICIAS FEELINGS

I am so happy that Sam is OK.
I just thaught that something happened to him because his mobile was off.
As we were in the hospital I had the feeling that my whole family was around me: my partner and my child, my little, new family.
It was the first time, that I felt something like that, and it was nice.
I donno if Sam feels like that too, but at least we kissed and isn`t that the proof??
At the GCSC classes I felt a bit like everyone was staring at me. But after a while I ignored it and
wanted to join the preparation. The preparation for the beginning of my new live with Sam.