I`m so glad that everything went good.
Now Roof is born and the pregnancy is over. I am so happy. No more flushing my crazy meals down the loo.Finally.
I am also happy that Sam went to my house or the toilet, you know.
Saying the truth I thaught he won`t come. I thaught he is afraight or frightend to see me nacked and having contractions , but I am proud of him that he came. I donno if I would manage that in his situation. I couldn`t escape the baby was just inside of me.
The contractions were really hard for me. It was like the whole pain I ever had flushed over me.
But as I can see it it was hard for Sam to count the the time. What an idiot, but I can understand him .He was just a confused idiot. It isn`t easy to see an nacked, sqeezing woman shouting like an animal. As my mum took us too the hospital the contractions went on. In the hospital I sleept a bit. I stood up and just started calling names to everybody in that damin room. The pain was just to extreme: every secound a contraction and so on...
I got really shocked when the baby got stuck. But after the painfull stuck everything went good. It was a good feeling to be a mother and I was proud of myself that I managed it.
As I looked at my little cute son I was amaized. He was the sweetest boy I `ve ever seen. I just wanted to hold him in my arms for ever. It was a beautiful feeling to be a mother. But as I wanted to say his name I noticed that he hadn`t had one. So I searched for one. Suddenly I realized that kind of slow piano music in the backround. It was from the CD my mother made for us. It had to be relaxing and it worked.
I asked my mum for the name of the singer: He was called Rufus. A brilliant name.
I thought that it`s perfect for my son. Sam is calling him Roof, I donno where he got this from but it`s sweet, isn`t it.Well the secound name will be an argument.
Donnerstag, 26. November 2009
Chapter 13
We got our exams back Sam`s ones were good.
My exams were not really the best, but that doesn`t matter now.
Sam and I, we decided that I will leave school after the baby is born. The baby, yes it sounds stupid but we haven`t got a name jet, so we have to hurry up....What I wanted to say is that I will concentrate on my job as a mother and I want to do that as good as possible.
We as the parents of the young child want to do the best for it and in my opinion the best is a mother that takes care of her baby 24 hours a day.
Last night I thaught about my mum and Sam`s.
I mean my mum is 50 years old and Sam`s is about 35 and she is pregnant too.Isn`t that weird???
I really want to know if they will be friends .I mean my child is only 4 months older.
My exams were not really the best, but that doesn`t matter now.
Sam and I, we decided that I will leave school after the baby is born. The baby, yes it sounds stupid but we haven`t got a name jet, so we have to hurry up....What I wanted to say is that I will concentrate on my job as a mother and I want to do that as good as possible.
We as the parents of the young child want to do the best for it and in my opinion the best is a mother that takes care of her baby 24 hours a day.
Last night I thaught about my mum and Sam`s.
I mean my mum is 50 years old and Sam`s is about 35 and she is pregnant too.Isn`t that weird???
I really want to know if they will be friends .I mean my child is only 4 months older.
Sonntag, 8. November 2009
chater 11 my feelings
Everything changing in good??
It´s going to be more familiarly.
Sam and Alicia`s parents are on firstname terms.
But as I see it it`s weirnd of Andrea for asking them where Sam will live when the baby is there, when she makes him feel like he`s not welcome. I mean this theory is the most realistic of all.
To tell the pregnancy secret Sam`s mum is unfair because Sam hasn`t the chance explain it himself. She is a bit freaky, I think so.
But hadn`t thaught that sams mum advise her son to stay at home and do not help Alicia by night and the whole time,because she was like Alicia too. A young mother wanting as much help as possible.
But Ican understand her because she wants to save her son and do the best out of the situation.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I`m happy that Sam`s mum accepts the situation, but I think it was easier for her than for my parents. I mean she has bin in this situation already when she got pregnant with Sam.
I`m happy that she didn`t do an abortion. I think Sam is the best that ever happened to her and I hope my child will be so like her son Sam.
I love him so much and I know that we`ll spend a great time together in my room, when the baby has been born.
It´s going to be more familiarly.
Sam and Alicia`s parents are on firstname terms.
But as I see it it`s weirnd of Andrea for asking them where Sam will live when the baby is there, when she makes him feel like he`s not welcome. I mean this theory is the most realistic of all.
To tell the pregnancy secret Sam`s mum is unfair because Sam hasn`t the chance explain it himself. She is a bit freaky, I think so.
But hadn`t thaught that sams mum advise her son to stay at home and do not help Alicia by night and the whole time,because she was like Alicia too. A young mother wanting as much help as possible.
But Ican understand her because she wants to save her son and do the best out of the situation.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I`m happy that Sam`s mum accepts the situation, but I think it was easier for her than for my parents. I mean she has bin in this situation already when she got pregnant with Sam.
I`m happy that she didn`t do an abortion. I think Sam is the best that ever happened to her and I hope my child will be so like her son Sam.
I love him so much and I know that we`ll spend a great time together in my room, when the baby has been born.
Chapter 10-Alicias list at pregnancy classes
Having a baby means:
-taking a big responsibility
-no sleep
-swollen eyes
-changing smelly nappies
-feed the baby
-charing wor with partner
-taking a big responsibility
-no sleep
-swollen eyes
-changing smelly nappies
-feed the baby
-charing wor with partner
chapter 10 my feelings
In chapter 10 everything is going a bit fast.
I donno if I would feel like them. I mean they go to hospital do this x-ray thing and suddenly they kiss. Ok Sam does this only for the baby, but when I would be Sam or Alicia I would want to have a bit more time: Sam just came back from Hastings but that doesn`t matter for Alicia.
In the pregnancy classes I would reakt totally different. Everybody would stare at me, because I would be too young , but Alicia feels good there. I would do it like Sam wanted to. He doesn`t really knows what it means to be a dad. Iwould feel there like in a wrong film. Like a child maybe in a horror film. Just at the false place and not welcome.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I am so happy that Sam is OK.
I just thaught that something happened to him because his mobile was off.
As we were in the hospital I had the feeling that my whole family was around me: my partner and my child, my little, new family.
It was the first time, that I felt something like that, and it was nice.
I donno if Sam feels like that too, but at least we kissed and isn`t that the proof??
At the GCSC classes I felt a bit like everyone was staring at me. But after a while I ignored it and
wanted to join the preparation. The preparation for the beginning of my new live with Sam.
I donno if I would feel like them. I mean they go to hospital do this x-ray thing and suddenly they kiss. Ok Sam does this only for the baby, but when I would be Sam or Alicia I would want to have a bit more time: Sam just came back from Hastings but that doesn`t matter for Alicia.
In the pregnancy classes I would reakt totally different. Everybody would stare at me, because I would be too young , but Alicia feels good there. I would do it like Sam wanted to. He doesn`t really knows what it means to be a dad. Iwould feel there like in a wrong film. Like a child maybe in a horror film. Just at the false place and not welcome.
ALICIAS FEELINGS
I am so happy that Sam is OK.
I just thaught that something happened to him because his mobile was off.
As we were in the hospital I had the feeling that my whole family was around me: my partner and my child, my little, new family.
It was the first time, that I felt something like that, and it was nice.
I donno if Sam feels like that too, but at least we kissed and isn`t that the proof??
At the GCSC classes I felt a bit like everyone was staring at me. But after a while I ignored it and
wanted to join the preparation. The preparation for the beginning of my new live with Sam.
chapter 9-Alicia Is she against an aboration???
In the moment I knew I was pregnant I saw 2 options:
-1. I should keep the baby and ruin a part of my life.
-2.Or I should do an aboration .
Bouth has got positive and negative sides. With and aboration I kill a baby. But what is more important? Me having a good life and a save chilhood or saving the life of another person, my one baby.
I donno what to do. So I messed around in the internet: doing an aboration is the same as having a gun in your pocket and killing the next person going over the street. I wound`t do that.
So I want too keep the baby.To tell your parents about your pregnancy is not as bad as klilling your own child. I´m sure about that and nobody can change my mind.
-1. I should keep the baby and ruin a part of my life.
-2.Or I should do an aboration .
Bouth has got positive and negative sides. With and aboration I kill a baby. But what is more important? Me having a good life and a save chilhood or saving the life of another person, my one baby.
I donno what to do. So I messed around in the internet: doing an aboration is the same as having a gun in your pocket and killing the next person going over the street. I wound`t do that.
So I want too keep the baby.To tell your parents about your pregnancy is not as bad as klilling your own child. I´m sure about that and nobody can change my mind.
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